Monday, November 05, 2007

I'm Listening God....

Today I'm searching for myself....Looking deep into who I am and what I want out of life. You know those days when you feel like, something is missing...So you think what is it? Well I've been looking a long time and I'm close to finding it, I know. I met a girl last week who was a vendor at Christmas Village at he BJCC. She makes hand bags and shoulder purses, hand knit scarves and ponchos. She put such a cool touch on her things, I immediately knew I'd found my favorite booth at Christmas Village. For a moment I found my self quite envious...Then as I bought one of her many items we talked and I quickly found that this person mirrored my personality. She said she'd found her way and her niche' by sewing Christmas stockings for her four children and had to "screw up to find out what she could really do". She said "God put it in her lap". I felt encouraged to hear her echo my thoughts of what inspired her and what doesn't and to see even still how successful she is! Her name is Heaven, and she's my new friend! Check out her site for really hip hobo bags, hand knit items such as scarves and ponchos. She has some beautiful things that any girl with great taste would love!!! I bought a shoulder bag with a leather flap. Heaven burned (branded) my initial in the flap along with some cool designs. It's awesome. The Bag Girl is located here in Alabama. http://www.thebaggirl.com/Browse.html


I'm listening for a voice inside of me. My creative voice, the call of nature that drives me to cook, pick out clothing for my kids, decorate the house for Halloween, create birthday themes, come up with crazy stories to tell my kids, rymthes and songs and even write. The drive that lights the way to go, to find the spark in me for once. I know it's there, but I can't make it happen. I feel like I could burst at times in frustration because I know there's something that God wants me to do. I want so badly to tap into the creative side of me that I know is there, but for some reason won't show it's beautiful face. I feel like I can do thousand things '"well" and for that I'm thankful, but I can't for the LIFE of me find the one thing that will catapult into a fun past-time and the passion that sooths my soul. This girl found hers and talked to me at lenght about how she got started. What a true inspiration!

So this is my prayer today~ Lord, please lead me in the direction you have intended. Help me to be faithful in you, that you will show me that path to explore and help unveil what is that I cannot find alone. Thank you for your blessings, Lord. I pray you'll bless my family and the people who lead me to you and your son, Jesus Christ, my savior and redeemer. Thank you for my blessings of loving family and friends and those who have help shape my life.

So excuse me, I've got work to do...I'm jumping in to find what it is I'm meant to do. I sorta feel Like Earl Hickey (my Name is Earl). Thanks for reading. I hope that God leads you where you want to go today.


Nurse Jenny